I've been really overwhelmed lately by all the balls that I'm trying to keep in the air. If you don't know what they all are, it's ok. I'm just realizing that some of those balls I have to put aside so that I can focus on the most important things with sanity!
I'm going to move forward with my life here in Ann Arbor and not wonder about other job possibilities. I'm going to look for an apartment on my own, and give up the roommate search since I have not gotten anywhere with that. I still am stressing about finding a 1 bedroom or studio that also has storage, but I will accept the fact that I may have to share a laundry room. Oh well, it's not fun, but it will be ok. I'll sell my current washer and dryer and then I'll at least have some extra money to maybe use towards my deposit.
The search for a college for my master's degree will have to be put on hold for now. I just can't give them attention right now. If I do I get to feeling overwhelmed I freak out. I don't want to be a freak, I want to be normal! I don't even know what I want to pursue for a degree!
Life is crazy, I'm feeling a little crazy, but God is in control and I'm holding on tightly!
Saturday, May 26, 2007
Saturday, May 19, 2007
I'm exhausted
Science camp was this week. For those who don't know that means that we went to the Howell Nature Center Monday-Wednesday and did your typical camp type things of orienteering, hiking, wall climbing, eating good camp food, and of course bible study time. Atypically, we had a major storm move through that caused our evening campfire to be cancelled and a power outage. We played card games like spoons and Uno, and charades in the dark. Around bedtime we let the boys relieve themselves in the woods, while we took the girls on a long walk to a port-a-potty. What fun!
On Thursday we took a day trip to Toledo (as in Ohio) and went to COSI for the day. The kids had to do a scavenger hunt while there. After a long day at COSI we went to McDonalds for lunch, where one unfortunate boy in my class accidentally headed into the girls bathroom. I know that some day he'll look back and laugh, but at the time the poor kid was so embarassed; he turned red and cried.
Friday we took another day trip to Toledo and went to the Zoo where we packed picnic lunches and had a great time. We didn't get to see the whole zoo, but most of the kids will have other chances to see the zoo again, as will I.
Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday I got home and took naps. And this morning I slept in till almost noon. I stayed in bed and read for a few hours. Then I got out of bed to read on the couch. I've stayed in my PJ's all day and feel very lethargic. I'm not sure if I feel crummy because of a lack of sleep all week, or because of allergies, or because I'm getting sick. Either way, I feel dreadful and am glad that I didn't have to see anyone today and don't care that the apartment is a mess.
Like I said, I'm exhausted.
On Thursday we took a day trip to Toledo (as in Ohio) and went to COSI for the day. The kids had to do a scavenger hunt while there. After a long day at COSI we went to McDonalds for lunch, where one unfortunate boy in my class accidentally headed into the girls bathroom. I know that some day he'll look back and laugh, but at the time the poor kid was so embarassed; he turned red and cried.
Friday we took another day trip to Toledo and went to the Zoo where we packed picnic lunches and had a great time. We didn't get to see the whole zoo, but most of the kids will have other chances to see the zoo again, as will I.
Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday I got home and took naps. And this morning I slept in till almost noon. I stayed in bed and read for a few hours. Then I got out of bed to read on the couch. I've stayed in my PJ's all day and feel very lethargic. I'm not sure if I feel crummy because of a lack of sleep all week, or because of allergies, or because I'm getting sick. Either way, I feel dreadful and am glad that I didn't have to see anyone today and don't care that the apartment is a mess.
Like I said, I'm exhausted.
Wednesday, May 9, 2007
Sunday, May 6, 2007
Breaking Up Is Hard To Do!
OK, so now that your attention is grabbed by the headline, here's the story...
I've been using eHarmony to meet guys. I connected online with a great guy from Lansing, but he said 1 hour is too far away so we never met in person. I'm still disappointed...
And there was a guy from Grand Rapids that I connected with online. He seemed nice, average looking in his profile picture, good German Lutheran guy from Frankenmuth. But a little over-zealous about meeting and spending time together.
We had our first date last night. At first he wanted to drive here and spend a day getting to know me. I was overwhelmed with that idea so I suggested that we meet in Frankenmuth some weekend we were both there visiting family. Then we could set a short initial meeting and if it worked we could plan for later that weekend and if not then no big deal. He suggested a full day at the Ford Museum and dinner. I was overwhelmed, but acquiesced. Then he called to change plans. Work offered him overtime Saturday morning, so we just did dinner.
We met at Best Buy, a nice neutral location and then went to dinner at Blue Nile, an Ethiopian restaurant. It was ok, fine, nice... pick your favorite neutral adjective, just like him. But from the moment I saw him in the Best Buy I knew it wasn't going to work. So I was hoping dinner would be over fast and then I could go home. But he was having a way better time than me and wanted the date to last longer. I wanted it to end sooner!
We got ice cream. We went to a yarn store... I didn't want to drag him in, but he said he didn't mind. I didn't know how to tell him I wanted to go. Then he wanted to go to a music concert. I said it wasn't my type of music, so he passed. Then he wanted to go to the gallery across the street. Finally I said my knee was hurting and I couldn't keep walking. So we went back to his car.
Hooray! I thought I was done. But he asked if I've been to Saline and I said "no, why?" "Well, it's a nice little town. Want to go see it?" (Not really, but how do I say that?) "Doesn't matter, but my knee is hurting." "We'll just drive so you don't have to walk." Well now I'm stuck, so we go. We drove through town and he finally took me back to my car.
And then I was really done. He and I had a brief hug and then parted. I went home and called my mom to tell her about my weird date. He just went home.
I emailed him on eHarmony to thank him for dinner. He wrote back how nice it was and how he wanted to see me again. I wrote back that I appreciated dinner, but didn't feel any chemistry and didn't want to lead him on. Apparently he wasn't expecting that cause he was shocked by the tone of his reply. But at least it's over. I guess I kind of feel bad for him. But there's someone better for each of us out there. It just wasn't fun telling him that it wasn't meant to be. And I'm glad it's over with.
I've been using eHarmony to meet guys. I connected online with a great guy from Lansing, but he said 1 hour is too far away so we never met in person. I'm still disappointed...
And there was a guy from Grand Rapids that I connected with online. He seemed nice, average looking in his profile picture, good German Lutheran guy from Frankenmuth. But a little over-zealous about meeting and spending time together.
We had our first date last night. At first he wanted to drive here and spend a day getting to know me. I was overwhelmed with that idea so I suggested that we meet in Frankenmuth some weekend we were both there visiting family. Then we could set a short initial meeting and if it worked we could plan for later that weekend and if not then no big deal. He suggested a full day at the Ford Museum and dinner. I was overwhelmed, but acquiesced. Then he called to change plans. Work offered him overtime Saturday morning, so we just did dinner.
We met at Best Buy, a nice neutral location and then went to dinner at Blue Nile, an Ethiopian restaurant. It was ok, fine, nice... pick your favorite neutral adjective, just like him. But from the moment I saw him in the Best Buy I knew it wasn't going to work. So I was hoping dinner would be over fast and then I could go home. But he was having a way better time than me and wanted the date to last longer. I wanted it to end sooner!
We got ice cream. We went to a yarn store... I didn't want to drag him in, but he said he didn't mind. I didn't know how to tell him I wanted to go. Then he wanted to go to a music concert. I said it wasn't my type of music, so he passed. Then he wanted to go to the gallery across the street. Finally I said my knee was hurting and I couldn't keep walking. So we went back to his car.
Hooray! I thought I was done. But he asked if I've been to Saline and I said "no, why?" "Well, it's a nice little town. Want to go see it?" (Not really, but how do I say that?) "Doesn't matter, but my knee is hurting." "We'll just drive so you don't have to walk." Well now I'm stuck, so we go. We drove through town and he finally took me back to my car.
And then I was really done. He and I had a brief hug and then parted. I went home and called my mom to tell her about my weird date. He just went home.
I emailed him on eHarmony to thank him for dinner. He wrote back how nice it was and how he wanted to see me again. I wrote back that I appreciated dinner, but didn't feel any chemistry and didn't want to lead him on. Apparently he wasn't expecting that cause he was shocked by the tone of his reply. But at least it's over. I guess I kind of feel bad for him. But there's someone better for each of us out there. It just wasn't fun telling him that it wasn't meant to be. And I'm glad it's over with.
Thursday, May 3, 2007
just for the record
Ok, just so that it doesn't look like I've gone a week without blogging, this is my token blog for the week. Nothing interesting has happened, well, maybe that's not true, just nothing blog worthy. And I'm so tired that I don't have the energy to write much. I'm going to clean the guinea pig cage, clean the cat boxes, watch Gray's Anatomy and then go to bed.
See, I'm telling you... boring!
See, I'm telling you... boring!
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